I Told Them

.

I told them
I spoke to them.
I wrote to them.
I told I told I told

I screamed.
I yelled
I whispered
I cried i cried, I cried

But They didn’t listen.

So I stopped
Screaming
Yelling
Whispering

My tears dried up

I stopped writing
I stopped talking
and
I never told again

All the pain,
the pain
It hid behind my smile
it cowered behind my eyes
and if someone, anyone, would have noticed
just once
once

Maybe I would have told again…

 

Again


I need to tell you something

But I am scared

Afraid that you will judge me

Or laugh at me

And

Not accept me.

I am scared

Afraid that I will judge me

Or laugh at me

And

Not accept me.

So I will hide it

Keep it to myself

From myself

Squash it down deep down

Bury it

Pretend

Make believe that it doesn’t exist.

But ,

It comes to haunt me

Jack in the box

It springs up again

And

Again.

I need to tell you something

But I need to not be scared

Or afraid

Of being judged

Mocked

Rejected

Again.

……….dk………

Acceptance

I am who I am

You cant change me

Only I can.

 

You are who you are

I cannot change you

only you can.

 

Let me speak freely

Let me sing

Let me be heard, be seen, be known

let me in…

and

I will listen

I will understand

I will love you, respect you, know you

I will always hold your hand.

 

and I hope

that you will do the same.